I’m going to be honest, a lot of times I get discouraged and/or disappointed with the way things are going in my life. Now is there something wrong chemically in my head, no. I just go through some things in life that trigger a pity party in my head just like any other person. Luckily I don’t stay there for long maybe a couple of days at the most and then I’m back to my old chippery self. Rather if it’s a argument with my spouse or some harsh reality that has altered my existence, I do still try to either think about the positives and move on. Or deal with it and then move on.
Just like anybody else in this world, I get thrown curve balls on a regular. And when your in a relationship it is either a hindrance or a blessing to have a partner that can alter your discouraging state of mind. If you are in a relationship, having a compatible partner is crucial especially if you suffer from depression or some suicidal thoughts. Support systems are essential in everyone’s life no matter how strong your will and spirit is. Checks and balances can be applied to almost every aspect of your life. For instance, a person can go through school doing what they think is great but in their parents or teachers eyes their doing the bare minimal. Now if neither one of those people, your support system, tells you to either try harder or do better, will you know to do it on your own? Or how about your feeling sad and feel like the walls are closing in on you and you have nowhere to turn and you just want this to end or your life to end so you can’t feel pain, shame, guilt, burden to others, pity, and etc. But you have that one friend, partner, relative, someone who is paying attention and comes to your rescue time and time again to talk you away from that ledge, knife, gun, rope, bedsheet, etc. Having that person beside you makes a big difference in this world and makes a weak minded person feel like they can grow and accomplish anything.
Disappointments will come and you will feel discouraged. But if you have surrounded yourself with the right support system then you won’t feel discouraged for long. The checks and balances you have in place will make you feel more uplifted and encouraged. There are times where we are not aware of our support system, it can well enough be a stranger. Yes, a strange person can feel compel to come to your aid when you least expect it and need it the most. Weird how life works sometimes, but it is necessary. This is not going to be much longer, I just wanted to share my thoughts and personal feelings. Yes, I do fear the darkness that the world can provide but I overwhelming enjoy the lighter side of the world. Joy comes in the morning and the darkness doesn’t last always. If you are ever in a dark place that seems like it’s never ending, please look for the light in any way shape or form. No matter how small that light may be. Remember, everyone needs checks and balances from a support system.